This Saturday Morning was breezy as usual in Bangalore, the chill started to balm my forehead just about at 4 am , when I started to give in to sleep. In my forced sleep, I browsed over the last three months and a little around it. Rest of the Saturday was usual , same as tons i Saturdays I have vegetated on, with the difference being my constant chase of the mystical black Icon on the top of the my cell phone's screen...It didn't change all day. Today's blog is dedicated to the Monologues I have had in recent past. It is intended to be thought provoking and hence can be offensive and like the love of my life says "Feel Free".
First, I said this a little over a year back to a close friend after a few drinks. In a Love Marriage, either Love survives or Marriage, very rarely do both survive. Life is a casino, You need to gamble yourself everyday. Life has No insurance and is chaotic. Marriage is Man Created Institution , love is a part of life. When you create marriage around Love , you create "Social Security". You are making something which is enforced by rules and law. Love has no legal standing and In that effort love dies. That's because you assume the role of "Husband and Wife". You become a husband and your beloved becomes a wife. Both have set roles, functions, deliverable, rules and etiquette. Love freezes, in some cases slowly and in some cases a little faster.
Watch a Husband and wife carefully, you see two ""actors"frozen in time, sitting there side by side. When you see love between two people , they are flowing, moving, changing and evolving each moment. They live in aura, their vibrations are broadcasting to each other and physical distance becomes irrelevant.
Look at the Husband and wife again, the husband never listens to what the wife has to say, he turned deaf a long time ago and the wife never sees what is happening to husband, she became blind long time ago ...They only see what the world wants them to see , a put up a Social show , just as a Prostitute does in Amsterdam.
I am not saying Marriage is a bad thing, but marriage to suit crowd pleasing and to appease social stinking norms is a bad choice.
Love is the real power and rarely happens between birth and death.
Second is about a "logistics" of love. The term logistics comes from the Greek logos , meaning "speech, reason, ratio, rationality, language, phrase". I have been miserable at the Logistics of love and my current failure just engraves it deeper. Lets look at speech part first, who was I ever able to tell that I love them in the manner which was socially acceptable. Here as well, the competition was ahead of me. I am possibly a man of a different non commercially viable genre. My language and Phrases were never honey coated, they were upfront, abrasive and communicated the good and the bad together. Next is reason, my love has never been aimed at a reason. It been love and hence needs no other reason was my conviction. Others around me saw reason in love, the girl was same community , religion, her career, her compatibility and blah . My reason has always been that "She is a Woman"and that's enough. I never learnt how to use overall information and judgement before falling in love. Next is ratio, I hate comparisons, I hate being shared. I cant be comfortable in situation where woman A is compared to Woman B , in terms of "features and benefits"and hence ratios are out of question. Comparisons are between cars , clothes but people ??? This world is different , ratios continue to apply, risk probability and analytics are applied on every small thing in love and relationships. I fail to understand the science of relationship, just thought it is an art .
Love can also get soaked in logistics, commercial aspects and certifications.
I still believe Love's basic premise is being Non judgemental. One you are non judgemental , love starts to evolve. Once judgement starts to come in , love starts to evaporate , leaving a dry life behind. Will someone please kill the Bollywood definition of love, it is a not a young single man and woman , "liking" each other with consent of society. Big Bull. In fact love never evolves in "consensus". It is such a "disruptive"process that it is meant to hurt , all at some level. It is bound to make you look bad , lunatic . It can make a middle age man act like a teenager is with the smoke in his hand , blowing grey smoke in a fashion identical to spitting on the sky. The trust in love is essence. Love is not knowing the history , geography and chemistry of a beloved and living with it. Love is all about not even knowing history , geography and chemistry and still loving. Just like Virginity has no connotation to the state of innocence. Not sure why was this term virginity coined, it is a binary logic , you have or you have had vaginal intercourse . Why should vagina come with a "Hit Rate Counter" just like websites. One Could be a virgin in thoughts , in innocence and prepared to love. If you love someone, Trust has to follow through ...does it ......
I fail in logistics of love and don't see myself changing that ...at all . My understanding of love still puts my beloved on the highest pedestal and will do that always. My love never comes with any " unless, only if , as long as , if and buts".
Unfortunately My love has always fell short of expectations...and I feel like a Pole dancer at a strip club who cant strip any further....
अपने सिवा बताओ कभी कुछ मिला भी है तुम्हे, हज़ार बार ली हैं तुमने मेरे दिल की तलाशियां
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