Eat , Pray and Love

I saw this movie a few years ago on my first flight between NY and Dubai aboard an A380 and loved everything about it , watching this twice back to back. The moment I was back in India, I ordered the book through Flipkart and finished it as well. The book is better than the movie btw , unless you are a Julia Roberts fan .

The Book talks about three aspects of life. Food , Prayers and Love . I realized in the last week, my connect with all three was killed in the last year .

Eat : I have not been a huge foodie but I have liked to eat well to please myself . I have been a vegetarian since 1994 and this is now increasingly ridiculed in my closest circle, while I don't react , I do get hurt when people when fail to understand my conviction on not killing some helpless animal for my food when I have more peaceful options. In addition my weight issues and health issues have now come to a stage where before everything I put in my mouth, I am forced to think , will it hurt me or help me ? Somethings I miss , The tandoor roasted Bharta in Amritsar, Tandoori Gobhi Parantha at Ahuja #1 and Giani Kulfi . I guess I was destined for only so much food ...I dug my grave with Knife and fork....


Pray : I have been spiritual for as along as I had mature senses, I have always believed in a divine force, which does ensure Karma is paid for, I don't have a description but I am convinced the divine force is feminine and is mother like . Honestly , the events of the last year have made me a bit atheist. Good Karma isn't always counted for .


Love: The best answer I have today on this is actually in a blog post that I follow . The Post is Titled "Were You loved enough" . My description of this cant be summed up in better words, I don't think I wish to even add a comma or a hyphen . Posting ...


I've had always wondered, how can somebody put up a quantification to love? How can somebody believe that the love they have had received seems enough for their subsistence?
Because I think the appetite of a human being for this particular feeling is too insatiable; whatever you get, leaves you greedy for more. Like the taste of honey on your lips, how you can never have enough of it. Similarly love, however much or however little you got, the sweet taste and the warm cocoon can never be enough. Instead, it creates more empty rooms to be filled.

Wherever I've been in life; maybe filled with loneliness or dereliction, sadness or hopelessness, fear or pain, I always knew even in those extreme bouts of emotions that there could never be one person who would walk into my life and the roses would start blooming. I always knew i needed much more, more people; people to love me in every shade and every area of my life. Many times not even one showed up, but the heart always longed for more..
Longed for one more time, one more person, one more conversation, one more lonesome touch, one more of everything i got or didn't, but from one more person, from every next person i met, every time.
It has to be too much, all the time. Who cares if it isn't? Nobody knows or cares, but your heart knows. Its never enough. The gaps are too huge, too much is needed to fill in.
But isn't it kinda selfish?
Maybe!!
So??
So next time when you crave for that love, call up somebody who called you up in your lonesomeness, be there for someone who showed up for you, smile to somebody who smiled at you when your day almost landed in dumps. But sometimes you can't give back to exactly the same people, so instead go to somebody else, anyone else. But do it. Spread that love, give it wings.. That's what this world needs most today.
Feel and share the love before you receive it, and then maybe someday it might secretly fly in through you window. Of course this will also be not enough, but it will be love. Isn't that enough ?

In summary , Love is never enough and given my journey , I think it is either a mirage or purely destinical . Either ways , The third quest is terminated as well ....

Today's Song , another one by Gulzar , helps me sleep ....almost every day .....

सुरीली अखियों वाले, सुना है तेरी अखियों से
बहती है नींदें और नींदों में सपने
कभी तोह किनारों पे, उतर मेरे सपनों से
आजा जमीन पे और मिल जा कहीं पे
मिल जा कहीं... ओ ओ ओ...

मिल जा कहीं, समय से परे, समय से परे मिल जा कहीं
तू भी अखियों से कभी मेरी अखियों की सुन
सुरीली अखियों वाले, सुना है तेरी अखियों से
जाने तू कहाँ है, उड़ाती हवा पे तेरे पैरों के निशाँ देखे

ढूंडा है जमीन पे, छाना है फलक पे, सारे आसमान देखे
मिल जा कहीं, समय से परे, समय से परे मिल जा कहीं
तू भी अखियों से कभी मेरी अखियों की सुन

ओत में चुपके देख रहे थे, चाँद के पीछे, पीछे थे
सारा जहां देखा, देखा न आखों में, पलको के निचे थे
आ चल कहीं, समय से परे, समय से परे, चल दे कहीं
तू भी अखियों से कभी मेरी अखियों की सुन

सुरीली अखियों वाले, सुना है तेरी अखियों से .......