Last night was unusual on many accounts , if destiny was a person , I am sure it has a huge smirk on its face. If divinity was a lady , she has looked at me from the nook of her eyes and expressed the best of her sarcasm. I have no complaints. There is a constant battle between I and We. I is reality while "We" is an illusion. All "we" is an illusion . The composition of "we" will always change , sometimes, friends will change , sometimes a spouse or beloved, all will change .
I hate to see myself as a victim, I hate sympathies and I hate the person I see in the mirror these days. He is not who he is .....
In reckless unstoppable divulgence, i was like a child in the lap, howling his hurt heart and each time the fingers weaved through my hair, i was healing ...In this case , the fingers were using a laptop ... i realised I was saying what i wanted to say to myself for a long time. I was making peace with the battle, i was writing the war diary, if she intended to change my value system , she failed. If she intended to kill my motivation or my conviction, she failed. I am hurt but I am live and kicking ...
Today I am doing what I have never done before , reposting a post, from another blog by another interrupted soul , so close to my heart and conviction.
It seems me , so me . The fact i stumbled upon this is destiny way of saying ...I am driving ......
For long time i believed that fidelity is one of the most significant way to evaluate a relation (so deeply stamped has been the thought in my head that it became an extreme point of judgement in others). Fidelity is mostly (or always?) judged in physical terms, if someone is not cheating on their partner they are a good partner. But isn't that like restricting fidelity to a smallest box possible. Aren't emotional fidelity or fidelity in your thoughts counted? And somehow if it is, then it never remains possible to be thoroughly committed to one relationship without stumbling.
But suddenly what became more important than the stumbling is that whether fidelity is the correct way to judge morality and should it even be used or occur on the list of tests for a relationship? And dammit it's a relationship not an exam.
While asking (/demanding) for fidelity in a relationship, are we even asking the right question? Also doesn't claiming for it takes away the basic premise of its existence?
Isn't asking for someone to be faithful to you like demanding out loud that I want to be happy or worse claiming from life to make you happy. Either you are happy or life will work out that way for you, but by out-rightly fighting for a share of happiness doesn't really bring any i believe. And then even if you are currently happy, doubting that one little thing which might have silently existed in the closets of you heart might lead to it just packing its bags and flying away saying, nothing i'd do is enough for this person.
So much similar is fidelity, it will happens if it has to happen asking for it or worse putting it on the list of requisitions might not bring any to the relation. Maybe like a soap bubble, it'll burst as soon as you'll want to capture it.
Can we lay fidelity as a ground stone even before constructing a foundation?
When we make friends, sometimes becoming best friends over time, we cannot ask them to be stop being friends with other people just because we think we are their friends and it seems enough for them according to us.
We meet people, then we meet some more. People need people where ever they would go, they will make friends, they'll talk to other people and from there on you can't play a prediction chart. Some will stay with us when we believe them to be worthy enough.
Then long term romantic relationships can be complicated. Who can say for them anyways?
That streak of possessiveness, jealousy, and to own a person is well known and will surely play out. Which one will play which wrong note at what time can not be known.
One of the most beautiful fictional couples (i've) ever know, Celine and Jesse, one's who for long were assumed to be the forlorn soul mates, which we all hoped for so hard. As a matter of fact it turns out that things turned out difficult for them as well! But then through all the clutter of incrimination's Jesse cuts in saying he has given his whole life to her, there nothing more he can offer and he's not giving it to anyone else.
Is that enough?
Isn't that enough?
The most beautiful thoughts the movie left me with and kept me on the foots wondering, why not!
At the end of the day, it's not the love of one person that matters. It's the love of life.
Today's song .....
I hate to see myself as a victim, I hate sympathies and I hate the person I see in the mirror these days. He is not who he is .....
In reckless unstoppable divulgence, i was like a child in the lap, howling his hurt heart and each time the fingers weaved through my hair, i was healing ...In this case , the fingers were using a laptop ... i realised I was saying what i wanted to say to myself for a long time. I was making peace with the battle, i was writing the war diary, if she intended to change my value system , she failed. If she intended to kill my motivation or my conviction, she failed. I am hurt but I am live and kicking ...
Today I am doing what I have never done before , reposting a post, from another blog by another interrupted soul , so close to my heart and conviction.
It seems me , so me . The fact i stumbled upon this is destiny way of saying ...I am driving ......
For long time i believed that fidelity is one of the most significant way to evaluate a relation (so deeply stamped has been the thought in my head that it became an extreme point of judgement in others). Fidelity is mostly (or always?) judged in physical terms, if someone is not cheating on their partner they are a good partner. But isn't that like restricting fidelity to a smallest box possible. Aren't emotional fidelity or fidelity in your thoughts counted? And somehow if it is, then it never remains possible to be thoroughly committed to one relationship without stumbling.
But suddenly what became more important than the stumbling is that whether fidelity is the correct way to judge morality and should it even be used or occur on the list of tests for a relationship? And dammit it's a relationship not an exam.
While asking (/demanding) for fidelity in a relationship, are we even asking the right question? Also doesn't claiming for it takes away the basic premise of its existence?
Isn't asking for someone to be faithful to you like demanding out loud that I want to be happy or worse claiming from life to make you happy. Either you are happy or life will work out that way for you, but by out-rightly fighting for a share of happiness doesn't really bring any i believe. And then even if you are currently happy, doubting that one little thing which might have silently existed in the closets of you heart might lead to it just packing its bags and flying away saying, nothing i'd do is enough for this person.
So much similar is fidelity, it will happens if it has to happen asking for it or worse putting it on the list of requisitions might not bring any to the relation. Maybe like a soap bubble, it'll burst as soon as you'll want to capture it.
Can we lay fidelity as a ground stone even before constructing a foundation?
When we make friends, sometimes becoming best friends over time, we cannot ask them to be stop being friends with other people just because we think we are their friends and it seems enough for them according to us.
We meet people, then we meet some more. People need people where ever they would go, they will make friends, they'll talk to other people and from there on you can't play a prediction chart. Some will stay with us when we believe them to be worthy enough.
Then long term romantic relationships can be complicated. Who can say for them anyways?
That streak of possessiveness, jealousy, and to own a person is well known and will surely play out. Which one will play which wrong note at what time can not be known.
One of the most beautiful fictional couples (i've) ever know, Celine and Jesse, one's who for long were assumed to be the forlorn soul mates, which we all hoped for so hard. As a matter of fact it turns out that things turned out difficult for them as well! But then through all the clutter of incrimination's Jesse cuts in saying he has given his whole life to her, there nothing more he can offer and he's not giving it to anyone else.
Is that enough?
Isn't that enough?
The most beautiful thoughts the movie left me with and kept me on the foots wondering, why not!
At the end of the day, it's not the love of one person that matters. It's the love of life.
Today's song .....
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