.......Happy.......

It is a Happy today .  I realised I let the dirt and muck of past cling on to me for much much longer than it should have . 

I had lost way, but I am out of woods . 

I just met Me .

I just met Me after years .

Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say “My tooth is aching” than to say “ I am just in pain" .

Life always had a beam of sunshine, i just refused to believe in light at times. Denial often pushes you further down.

But I learnt amazing lessons , in life , in people. 

Like stuff we all know but we all ignore , but that stuff is so real . 

Some notes to myself in last 5 years ....

• Dont dream for a euphoria, just live the day , the week and the quarter, be "Micro Ambitious"   you may miss the next, most shiny thing from the corner of your eye , in close proximity,  if you are always looking too far ahead . The next worthy pursuit might be in your immediate periphery . 
• Don't Seek happiness , create one . Have a Happy day , smile, meet more people, make more mistakes, bet more , loose more . Happiness is like an orgasm, if you think about it too much , it just goes away. keep Busy and aim to make someone else happy and your happiness may come as a side effect , or  a dividend . Earn Good Karma . That's only Happiness I know . Rest all theories are pure BS. No one is constantly content and no one should be . Keep The craving, keep chasing. just like the Johnnie Walker whiskey tag line, keep walking . 
• Its all Luck , dont credit yourself too much with effort. You are lucky to be born, lucky to be born in a family who could afford education and hence some awareness. You could have been born in Afghanistan tying yourself to bombs chasing 72 virgins . Luck and Serendipity are real, stay away from self obsessed people . No one is self made, no one is born without another person's effort and no one gets to graveyard walking .
• Do something. Be "Tandarust" and "Mandarust". Listen to music , walk, run , do whatever makes you happy.
• Opinions are like ass holes, everyone has one and has a right to believe theirs doesn't stink . However, have the guts for yours to be examined . Have firm opinions. Be intellectually rigorous , identify and examine your biases. Man's opinions are like flowing water, it doesn't flow , it stinks . 
• Most of society's arguments and norms are pure Hear say. Don't kill the rebel in you for complying with History. Comply with future and not History.
• Science without Art is like a BMW with no paint. Stay away from people who don't appreciate creativity . 
• Lovers , Lunatics and Poets are all made of same stuff. I have this Poster in my bedroom. Love it . Believe in it totally . Stay Unapologetic about who you are . People either demolish your argument or follow you . 
• Keep teaching and Keep learning . Dont ever stop. teach what you know , learn what you don't, till you die. Rejoice what you have learned and spray it . 
• Define yourself with what you love . I love Ghazals , I like Temples , I like Kurtas , I like writing . I like to read people . Stay in love with the nuances of life . 
• Always identify someone around not in best of spirits and be with them. Tough times don't last but you will always remember who gave a patient ear to all your sob stories and still didn't judge you . Treasure them . 
• Don't Rush , Don't  live in the past . Life has its own course which you don't know. Most folks I knew who thought they were sorted at 21 are totally lost and at 45 , I now know , the best is right ahead of me . I may soon be dead , I still want to die with my shoes on and my indefatigable spirit.  

Some messages that i liked in recent past ....